What am I afraid of? My Top 3 Fears

I don't consider myself a fearful person. Really there is not much that "scares" me.

I will note that I have never seen a horror movie in my life - yep its true. I was raised with very Christian parents and "God is not the author of fear." Soooo, we don't do scary. Period. My kids don't either.

Honestly I don't feel deprived... but these are 3 things that kinda seem to hang over my head as my 3 biggest "fears?!”

1. Itching.

Anything that makes me itch. I HATE itching. Ants, fleas, mosquitos, yellow flies, poison ivy, oak, or sumac, whatever it is that might cause it I will spray, scream, or run from. Benadryl is always with me.

Snakes? Egh.

Roaches? Ewe.

Mice? Ugh.

Chiggers AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!! I never ever, ever want them. I have seen them. I've heard stories. NO.

2. Failure

Yep. Failure in whatever I do. It’s been this way as long as I can remember. It doesn't matter how simple or how complicated I. Do. Not. Want. To. Fail. and if its a game I want to win.

Unfortunately, this means I am constantly challenging myself in every way.

This also means that nothing is ever quite good enough. I am always trying and working toward something better.

This is not something I really enjoy about myself, but bottom line is whatever I am doing I will do my best to be the best I can be. Period. Because failure is not an option .........even though it happens .....often ....VERRRRYYYY often ....but that's another conversation!

3. Another Concussion

This is pretty new because my 2 concussions were in 2018, (see previous blogs for those stories)

Honestly, just about everything I do now is dependent on will this hurt my head? Will this cause another injury? Or how stressed will I be in preventing an injury??

Those 2 head injuries made such an impact and the recovery was so hard that I am constantly on guard. I still ride horses, but I am super cautious therefore I don't attempt to run barrels anymore. When I am driving I am pretty paranoid and if I am riding with someone it is even worse. It is probably some sort of minor PTSD, but all I know is I am VERY aware of what could cause injury and I attempt to avoid it because I never, ever want to have that pain again.

Those are 3 of my top fears. What are yours?? I would love to know!