Infertility|Miracles|MyFirstBabyBoy

My husband and I started dating when I was 14 he was 16. We got married at 18 and 20. October will be 16 years of a very eventful life together. There have been really great times, ok times, bad, ugly, terrible times and wonderful times. Like most marriages are- its been a ride! We had dated so long before we got married after a while we were like "Let's have a baby!" How hard could it be right?! We were young, perfectly healthy for all we knew and ready to start building our family. It didn't happen the way we thought it would. Not even one step of the way. Our quest to start a family would begin 4 years of frustrating, heartbreaking ups and downs. Infertility is a really awful heartache. Hope is very hard to muster up sometimes when you are in the middle of this long drawn out process that appears to never end. Compared to some who have spent 10, 15, or 20 years trying, 4 doesn't sound like much, but in the middle of it all it still hurts. I am thankful for the lessons we learned through it all and the gratitude and sympathy gained from walking through something like this.

Friends or family would awkwardly call and hesitantly tell you they are pregnant. They know what you are going through and don't want to make it worse and you try your best to celebrate with them because you truly ARE happy for them, but inside you hurt. You just question "why not me too God?!" Soooo many emotions and disappointment month after month.

Time would continue to pass and we were referred to multiple doctors until finally we had an amazing, sweet specialist. They did test after test. There was no obvious reason. Shots and pills for months and the first 2 rounds of IUI (Intrauterine insemination) didn't work. We would just say "Ok thats it for a while." We would just figure if it happens it happens, if not THIS roller coaster is miserable and we just want to get off now! We pursued adoption, but it never worked out. Eventually we would pick it up again because we knew God gave us doctors for a reason and that he can work through them to help us. We had a peace to see it through this time.

They figured it out "Cervical Stenosis." They did the surgery to fix it, another round of IUI and we had a baby on the way! It was a happy, happy day when I FINALLY had a positive test!!

{To avoid TMI I will be vague about this part!}...they checked my hormones everyday to make sure they were rising. About 3 days after the positive test I began to spot..then it got heavier...it was not fun. My levels were very low also. They quickly raised my progesterone med and put me on bed rest. I'm not sure what the solution is now when this happens, but 12 years ago and for this doctor bed rest, no stress, and progesterone was what their prescription for me to try to avoid a miscarriage. I would rest it off and be up for a couple of days and then it would start again and I would be back down. Lots of trips back and forth so they could check and make sure there was a heartbeat. This went on for the first 5 months. Constant fear and stress that what you prayed and prayed for and were so happy to have was going to be gone. Not fun.

After all of that my levels were good and I was able to carry on like a normal pregnancy. 50 lbs and a c-section later I had a sweet 8lb 6oz baby boy one day after my due date. It was VERY exciting, he was perfect.